How did I get here?

When you're a child you have all of these goals and dreams of where you are going to be when you "grow up", and I'm sure none of us said to ourselves..."I want to be an alcoholic/addict!" How does it even happen, when does it happen, why does it happen?! I'm not going to run through my whole childhood, and all of the different reasons or ways how I could of gotten here, but I'm here and that's what matters. That is why I'm doing this, because I am finally here, finally doing something about my problem(s). What I will do is at least tell you a little about myself though...my name is Allison, and I am just a couple short days from a year of sobriety. It's exciting, scary, crazy, sad and a million other things. "I've lived a whole year without a drink, am I really not going to drink ever again?" I still ask this and I know I will continue to ask myself this for many years to come. People with years of sobriety still struggle, it's a lifetime process. Was it my choice to be in recovery? Not exactly! Who's really all that excited to walk into there first AA/NA meeting? Not to many of us. I was terrified! The law got me to where I am today and I am not so sure that I would of had it any other way because I don't believe I admitted that I needed the help that I did. But I am here and it's saved me. A lot of future posts may be a little all over the place, what recovering addict isn't all over the place? But I want to share my story, share my every day thoughts, feelings, struggles, maybe in hopes to help someone else, if not at least to teach others this is a real life struggle, a real life thing, and not a disease to take lightly. Welcome to my journey!